Today and this past and last week has really been something.
- Last week, I got a troll message from a anon. Tumblr user who've said some pretty harsh words and assumptions about me probably based on my Tumblr reblogs and posts. It was really bugging me for a while and I kinda felt like breaking down a couple hours but I tried to stand tall and defend myself from this random hate mail
by defending myself with words of reason for why this anon. has no right to accuse me for his harsh assumptions. Of course in a sense I just a fed a troll but for once I've decided not to become a silent bystander to something that's worth defending for; myself.
For days afterwards till' yesterday about, it was still on my mind and continued to trouble me; but
and my vent buddies
helped me blow this whole thing over by talking to me about the situation and gave me some good cheers; so I thank you girls with the deepest of gratitude.
- BUT TODAY WAS ONE TO REMEMBER!
In order of chain of events: For the past couple months I've been waiting for my paycheck to be ready for me to pick up and my patience was really being tested for these months seeing that my pick up date has been pushed back a couples times, so today I finally found the time to get my check; I had everything planned out either to figuring out my bus schedule for going to certain designations, calling for carpools, and figuring out how to get gas money. EVERYTHING CHANGED FOR THE WAY BETTER!
Today after school I told my friend she didn't have to take me home as usual cause I needed to go somewhere out of her way, but she decided that it was fine and she drove me to my designation out of her way ON HER DAY OFF FROM WORK instead of me walking to my bus-stop and waiting in the rain. Successfully being dropped off where I needed to be, I finally got my pay check and was ready to go back to the bus stop to go home.
But while picking up my check, I bumped into my friend
(who has also been my vent buddy lately) who insisted on taking me home (WHICH WAS ALSO WAY OUT OF HER WAY) instead of me taking the bus (which I felt really guilty on the inside because a couple nights ago she took me out with her family to go eat dinner at a fancy thai restaurant THAT SHE FULLY PAID FOR WITH HER OWN MONEY!!!)
On the way, she also went out her way to go to my bank for me to cash in and then to our new local 'Bleu Cupcakery' shop (which was quite exciting that I must say.) But here's when EVERYTHING (ALL MY PMS-ing, all the recent stress) flies away into my bliss! After me and
got our cupcakes and starbucks, a women stopped me before we left the parking lot, and I believe her name was Ezula.
She was bald and she looked like she had cancer but she seemed happy and more full of life than most people I've seen, so I didn't ask cause it didn't seem appropriate. She tells me that she just recently had a premonition (future seeing dream/vision) in her sleep that she would meet a man with long hair and a shirt with the letter 'R' on it (aka me with my Team Rocket shirt on with my natural looks!)
So she decides to give me $60
which leads to me asking specifically why she was giving me this money? She tells me, "I don't know why, but this premonition I had and meeting you here today tells me that God must really love you and all he wants for you is for you to be happy and to show his appreciation for you." I'm kinda crying on the inside just rethinking the moment cause everything was just so quick and unexpected and everything today just seemed to really work out for me today. She even wanted to pray for me and my friend's safety and well-being (which of course I did, cause I was really emotional on the inside and she really made my day.)
In the end, up till' now with me typing this journal entry, I'm still thinking to myself who's really up there watching and guiding us (or down there, whatever it is) cause me being an agnostic and looking and staying open to different religious perspectives I'm really confused but I feel everything was done for the more positive outlook; but what I don't need to ponder upon for myself and whats been happening lately is that I don't regret any certain choices that I've made lately, I'm glad to have and know friends who care about others, I thank you and appreciate all the support you as my watchers and friends have given me, I'm thankful to whoever's been pulling the strings for these chain of events to come into place, and that may Ezula recover from her illness and continue to live a good beautiful life.Again, Thank You; All Of You